Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Relationship with me

Relationships are built on what? And why do we find ourselves asking God to save us from the one we are in a relationship with or deliver us to a partner that appreciates what we bring? I recently had to ask many of my friends opinions on decisions I was making in my own relationship to garner some clarity. I came to the conclusion that no matter how hurt I got and how disappointed I was in decisions my partner made I was always told that all relationships take work! What the hell is work? Glad you asked. Work is accepting the faults your partner has and realizing you’re not that perfect either. In fact if you take the time to figure out what may bother you about your relationship it may be something as simple as understanding yourself. I mean minus cheating and adultery. I thought about how as time progresses in a relationship you began to forget about why you’re in a relationship in the first place. I caught myself wondering if I was in another relationship with someone things would be better. Wrong! It would be the same problems new person. I forgot about the real reasons I love my partner and the funny feeling in my stomach I got when I would see her. But it’s there you just have to uncover it and realize why things may have gotten buried. The saying “Life happens” is accurate but they forgot to tell you life happens and you must remember that your not alone and having a relationship is about sharing. I believe love is a never ending journey and so is friendship. They both go hand and hand. But like anything it takes longevity and maturation.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

You get back what you put out

I was in the theater watching Avatar and I thought about how we all are connected in some form. Relationships connect like forms of enery traveling the pipelines of human thought and emotion. At a point some of the energy travels right back to you based on the overwhelming amount of negative or positive energy you have put out. I used to hear about " You get what you put out" all the time. I didn't really get the point and couldn't understand how I could control it. But, the ironic thing is that you can control what comes back to you. But it takes practice and a great deal of self awareness, most of all, it takes honesty. So am I saying, that bad things don't happen to good people? Absolutley not. I am saying, good people don't really acknowledge bad things. Let me clarify, people who are in tune with what they put out into the universe don't allow negative things to enter or cause a reaction from them. They are focused with being who they are and stay steady on the stream of positive thought conciousness. Don't get confused with the term good and bad I use it not in the context of right and wrong. But more for people who have great clarification of self-being. This exercise of giving or sharing positive thought creates harmony. For example try this exercise, walk into a room of people you dont know. Don't say anything and look angry. You will illicit, more than likely, negative responses. If you try the same exercise and look happy you will probably illicit the same response in return. This holds true with the daily walk of life "experiences". Try it.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Cause and Effect

I had to make a hard decision and go against my backward way of thinking.Reach out to people who I felt embarrassed and afraid to reach out to. I should probably address how could a backward way of thinking be good or even hard for me to realize that its wrong. Well, the answer is simple. If you condition your mind to process information in a particular manner you will react to certain external issues in a particular way. As I wrote in an earlier blog you will develop a naive theory. Which is just, a way of fooling yourself that what you think is correct is correct but in actuality is completely false or wrong. The fear of embarrassment and fear of anything can be argued good or bad. However, the fear to completely give in and overcome and not dig out the hole your in can lead to a cause and eventually an effect that can lead to turmoil, arguing, and loneliness. But the interesting thing about this is, you don't realize that these things may happen because of your decision and you become so self absorbed that you focus on your internal and have no care for your external world. Sounds terrible. It is. But we all do it. The idea is being cognisant of the effect. Once you take a step back and realize what you are causing, becomes very ugly and shameful. In fact you will want to change for a brief second and then slowly go back to the comfortable naive practice which has got you where you are today. If your like me, and want the best you to be seen. You know what you have to do. I was in a meeting yesterday and the facilitator expressed the idea that we don't take time to listen anymore. Many people tend to listen to a person for a second and then began to talk about themselves. If you take the time to observe and listen it makes a world of good and the cause and effect will bring a welcoming change to your external and internal worlds.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Fly or Scramble back?

I thought about the phrase " If your not happy, how can you make someone else happy". I thought about, if the person who came up with this phrase is referring to, if I am unhappy I will make everyone else around me unhappy or maybe I am not showing myslef, so my true happiness never comes out. The truth for me is when I am truly happy, I am truly honest and at peace with myself about all the decisions I have made. Happiness is something that you have complete control over. As we develop from childhood to adulthood we learn to control what we allow to make us happy or not. The funny thing is we spend alot of the time trying to be happy. Which infers most of the time we are unhappy or we are strunglling to hold on to the little bit of happiness we do have. I have read a few ideas on the subject of having control over ones happiness and have concluded for myself that my actions create the flow of happiness I experience. It's about choice. But how do we get to have that control. It's an individualistic experience. For me, I had to lose alot to gain alot. Sometimes when we are pushed off the branch we fly or we scramble back to the ledge and get pushed off again, till we realize we don't belong on that branch anymore and it's time to create our own happiness.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Right v. Wrong doesn't mean You v. Me

When I was told or confronted about being wrong,I would feel a certain spine tingling sensation. This would automatically force me to put up a defense. I had to protect myself from feeling embarassed or in my head ashamed that I may not know what it is I believed I knew. In our lives we have relationships that are based on many things. For example, family, friends, professional, etc. How we let people influence our pool of personal knowledge is different from each relationship category to the next. But what should not differ is our personal wanting to learn from others. And to allow others to correct us when we are wrong. In some instances the embarassment that I felt, fueled the fire for me to be right about something. So in essence I began to find weakness in an conversation or change he subject matter that I had superior expertise in. What is paramount was to identify that because I am wrong and your right I am not less of a person. It in fact means that if I am smart I will acknowledge the lesson learn and apply it next time. We as human-beings tend to focus on what's right and wrong. And not what's important.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Naive Theory

Naive Theory is a concept which I was recently intorduced to by my chair. It deals with misconceptions people have in life, and how they grow up believing these misconceptions are truth and not misconceptions at all. For example in my research I discuss certain misconceptions people conclude about African Americans, in particular, our family structure. There are a few people who my have heard, read, or had a friend tell them about certain misconceptions that had no factual data to back it up. But they grew up believing these misconceptions as truth and not only treat African American according to these misconceptions in a certain way but also spread the misconception to other indviduals. Many researchers have juggled with the idea on how to stop this from happening. Possibly, changing the way people process information and learn new cognitive ways of learning. I thought about myself and experiences I have been in where I was at fault for doing this. Sometimes staying comfortably with what you think you know and not stepping outside the box is "safe". The real growth and strength comes from change and fundamental acquisition of new knowledge. The truth for many people is an obstacle and for others a certain freedom. Life give us the opportunity to learn everything we possibly can and to have an open door to obtain new insight. Have there been instances where you let misconception guide any part of your life?